And that’s cool too. I mean “being visually pleasing” has a meaning in a sense too. It makes you feel a certain way, and that feeling can be different for every viewer. Sure that probably sounds “woo woo” or something but a thing that pleases you means something to you. Also just the act of creation can be very therapeutic and that’s meaningful in its own way too. I wish you luck with your depression. That one has been a bitch for me as well. In fact I never feel like I have time to make art, but when I do it feels great.