I think I have this kind of job, and yet I want everything to just stop. Everything. And I am not autistic nor have ADHD. And I can’t even ask anyone for help, because I am not supposed to. I did try asking for help. I was either ignored or was told that I shouldn’t ask for help.

“Ironically,” it’s a picture I used as a profile pic on my real life accounts.

I shouldn’t even be around.

I don’t know which is worse: that there is no sense of self anymore, or that I have to put on masks to pretend there is.

It is, but still.

I think I’m finally moving to the mysterious side. I am not mysterious though. I just am.

I’m not. And I’m not sure if I should be. And I can’t go there anyway. I sometimes wish I could though.

Aw, I want dark magic.

No, actually meant precision. Like, no collateral damage. Yes, I saw that bit today on YT. With the jogger lady doing her jogging. Never had I wanted to be part of a protest so bad.

Is this precision protesting/riot?

I can’t relate to either. It is not very good. Not all on me though, I hope.

For a people who yell “family values,” they sure are into other people’s genitals.

One of my “friends” explicitly told me that they hated talking to me, and yet they kept doing it until I mangled the relationship. Or maybe it magled itself or was always.

I mean, you can always recycle and repurpose. Nothing has to go to waste.

That’s so much me that I’ve been questioning some things.

The whole world is suffering his presidency, we should just declare ourselves communists and say “not our president”

I’m not even a concept. To others, yes, unfortunately everyone is some sort of a concept. But to myself, I don’t even think I’m a concept.

Oh, let me have this, won’t ya

I don’t speak French but wouldn’t that basically be pronounced “wank”?

Oh, that’s a good one. I’m very far from being tech savvy myself, so I gradually tried to remind myself people can not care enough about this stuff to learn even some basic terminology or have other, more urgent concerns. A lot of the service industry depends on this kind of unfamiliarity, I guess.

Have you ever heard something like saying “His Windows is Linux”?

An upgrade to having never heard of Linux but also a downgrade somehow